So basically this is me reflecting on my life from the past few weeks…

-Most recently, I had to go the hospital (story of my life) for incredibly scary/painful chest pains. The good news: my heart is apparently perfect (for the moment). My nervous system in my body however is apparently fucked up.

-From this whole “heart” scare, I learned more (that I should’ve already known) about this other disease I have-fibromyalgia. So apparently, people with fibro have fucked up nervous systems and their bodies can’t interpret normal bodily functions and stuff correctly—so it interprets them as pain. So basically, with just my heart beating alone, my brain interprets that as pain. Great!

-Apparently, I sing in my sleep—like entire songs. And throw my teddy bear in the air—and catch it—all in my sleep.

-My cousin talks a lot in her sleep. One night, she asked me what was wrong with my face. Even in her sleep, she’s a total bitch. Five minutes ago, she screamed “he’s going to get fangs and turn himself into a fish!” wtf is she dreaming about?

-I heart my new j-o-b a lotssss. Tis totally easy. And I have benefits! And I get to meet lots of cools peeps….and some uncool ones. I’ve also realized how much I’ve changed. Shit doesn’t bother anymore. Therefore it’s incredibly hard for me not to laugh at people when they get pissed off about the dumbest things. Which basically makes me a bitch.

-With the above being said, I HAVE to get an apartment soon! I just can’t live with my fam anymore. They fight way too much, and I’m totes glad I’m rarely home.

-I LOVE living in a city. Which is sad, cuz it’s Lexington. But it’s the biggest city I’ve ever lived in (except Tampa-but I don’t remember that). Sooooo, everything is so close!

-I really like to talk about myself sometimes. Okay, more than sometimes.

-I have to get a storage unit for all my stuff. That feels so adult-like. Which is creepy.

-I’m going to go see Kings of Leon in October. Hells yeah!!!

-I’m thinking about getting a Beetle…

-Oh, I went to my first Mexican wedding. Haha. They like to dance.

-I’ve learned that you shouldn’t diss Dell for making shitty computers. Especially when you accidently turned off the wireless switch. And it takes you a week to figure out the problem.

-Within a matter of weeks, I’ve completely transformed into this new person. Which scares the shit out of me to be quite honest. It’s like someone’s flipped a switch. And now I’m the person the I always wanted to be. But I don’t remember getting here.

-I can tell one of my coworkers pretty much thinks I’m crazy, b/c I’m too happy all the time. That’s a first.

-I scares me a little at how much I dont think about ya’ll. How can someone be a part of your life for so many years, and then when it’s all said and done, you never think about them? It saddens me a little. But not enough to cause for a concern.

-I was bored and sleepless the other night, and I was thinking about death (b/c of MJ and Farrah). And it occurred to me (as cheesy as this may sound) that I’m pretty much one of the luckiest people in the world. My mom not only gave me life, she also gave me her last breath.

-Once again, I can’t sleep! And it’s morning. So Good Morning :)